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Saturday, January 18, 2025
Friday, January 10, 2025
Letter to MY Body - A Class Assignment Foundations_of_PsychologicalSense_PF501
Dear Body,
In many ways I cannot identify with the first half of
McBride’s letter. It sounds like she had a different relationship with her body
than I do mine. However, I do find there are things I could say to you. We’ve
discovered together that the biblical author’s worldview is that of an embodied
worldview.
For years, I lived with an eschatology that told me I had to
escape from my body. The body was evil, dirty, wrong, sinful. The highest hope
was to get raptured out of my body and into a disembodied heaven when I die. I
longed for that escape. I wondered why I should have to be stuck in a body that
betrayed me. If the hope is to go to heaven when I die, shouldn’t I hasten that
future? Shouldn’t I try to die? Isn’t escape the answer?
While I was never serious enough about that question to take
immediate action, I engaged in “long tail suicide”. I used you in such a way as
to use you up, such that I could hasten my departure. This led to a full mental
breakdown in 2016, and a long journey of getting in touch with the body I had
dismissed and ignored. You slowly stopped being a prison, and became my salvation.
By allowing myself to feel emotions (rather than suppress them), I became a “fully
integrated human” capable of experience conflicting emotions simultaneously.
When we first had that experience we thought we were going crazy, but we were
reassured we were becoming integrated.
Then we reconstructed just about every lie we inherited from
US-American Churchianity by re-learning the gospel of the biblical authors. We
learned better. We discovered that the hope is not for a disembodied future,
but a more fully embodied present and re-embodied future. We learned that this
is God’s good earth, and that we should be fruitful and multiply in it. We
should be looking for ways to bring God’s domain into partnership with our
domain, allowing the overlap of heaven and earth, not the departure from earth
to heaven.
When we discovered this, we stopped wanting to escape, and
started looking to honor you as the body we were given to live an embodied faith.
In light of the front row seat we just had for the last three
months watching Mike Wolfe mistreat his body unto death, and in light of all
these growing points. I submit to you the following:
I’m sorry for giving you food (quality and quantity) that
was not ideal for your operational best.
I’m sorry for allowing jocks from high school whom I haven’t
seen in over twenty years continue to keep you out of the gym so that you could
reach your highest potential.
I’m sorry for ignoring your screams to be heard until it
landed us on 14 medications just to function.
I’m proud of the progress we’ve made on our ability to
process and sit with “feels” in healthy ways.
I’m proud of the courage it took us to start Trulicity
(GLP1) and stab ourselves every week since July, and I’m proud of the fifteen
pounds we’ve lost combining that with the gym.
I’m proud of the work we’ve done in the gym, discovering it
wasn’t so scary afterall, and the strength we now bring to other areas of life
because of it, and the confidence physical health is bringing to our
relationships and work.
I’m proud of you for coming back after two broken legs and decades
of sedentary lifestyle.
I love you for supporting me in this journey.
I hope that I will continue this journey with you, so that
we don’t end like Mike Wolfe ended.
I hope to take you on new journeys and discoveries, and that
will require strength we don’t have today, but we are working toward.
I’m sorry to say… that’s going to mean some hard days at the
gym ahead and hours of the day you haven’t seen in decades. But it will be
worth it when you smell the sea air on the coast of Italy or feel the foggy
Scottish highlands on your face.
Let’s have an adventure,
Darrell
Shalom: Live Long and Prosper!
Clifton StrengthsFinder: Intellection, Learner, Ideation, Achiever, Input
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Thursday, January 2, 2025
Writing Practice 01/02/2025 | Angst the happy dragon
*From a conversation about a book Preston was reading… this phrase came up. Good prompt.
How does one get ready for their appointment with God?
“How does one get ready for their appointment with a god?” L’Ang asked. He turned to his dragon, waiting for a response.
Angst, the tiny pet dragon, sat on his perch near the window, soaking the rare winter sunshine through the window. He nodded thoughtfully for a moment. “I see your predicament. It’s not an entirely uncommon experience, but it’s not exactly a daily experience either. What does one say, ‘Howdy there diety, how’s the weather?’ That would seem an odd start, indeed.” Angst the dragon smiled to himself, amused at the idea.
L’Ang crossed the room to stand next to Angst, intending to look out the window, but he caught his own reflection instead. He began fussing over the grey hairs beginning to shoot up in his otherwise jet black hair. “I’m not sure what one is to say to a god… Or, for that matter, why he wants to see me… me of all people.”
“You fuss too much,” Angst said, then shook his wings and stretch them before hopping onto L’Angs shoulder. “Let’s go outside and take a walk, that seems to help you regulate.”
“You’re a good friend, Angst.” L’Ang replied, and then walked outside to the path leading into the forest.
Shalom: Live Long and Prosper!
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Monday, September 23, 2024
Class Assignment: Exile Experiences
Exile Experiences
“In the third year of the reign of Jehoiakim king of Judah, Nebuchadnezzar the king of Babylon came to Jerusalem and besieged it.” (Daniel 1:1–2, LEB)[1]
My name is Geula [DGW1] (גְּאוּלָה), and I was only about ten when they took many
of my friends to Babylon. As a girl, I wasn’t allowed to enjoy the learning of
the boys, but I knew Daniel and the three shovavim that would end up following
him. Daniels younger brothers were my friends. They even taught me to read
Hebrew by scratching the letters into the dirt. They agreed it was a silly rule
and we all thought we’d change it when I grew up and made the rules. That’s
when Babylon came, defeated our soldiers, and our king switched allegiances.
Babylon took many of my friends. My brother Aharon was killed that day, with so
many others, before the king switched sides. The boys were taken during the
first deportation, while I remained in Jerusalem under the vassal king,
Jehoiakim.
Loosing many of my friends, especially the ‘smart’ ones was
hard. I still practiced my letters when nobody was looking, brushing it away
quickly if any adults came looking. After the breaking, one day, I looked down
the road and Aliyah’s parents were walking toward our bakery. I expected to see
Aliyah, but she wouldn’t be there, then I remembered she was taken, and my
chest ached. Her parents’ shoulders were slumped forward, their faces seemed hollow
and sunken. I offered them a bite of our freshest bread. I think they saw her
in me, because Aliyah’s ima would jostle my hair and offer a tight smile, then
wipe her eyes a little before she would turn away to speak with my parents. When
she did that, my eyes burned, my chest felt tight, like I couldn’t breath, but
I shoved it down, to be strong for Aliyah’s ima. Most days, though, I just felt
numb, like my laughter had disappeared. I helped around the bakery, eventually
taking it over as I got older.
The adults whispered about how the Assyrians took the
Northern Kingdom of Israel away many generations ago, but they never believed
it could happen to us, not in Yehuda, especially not in Yerushalaym, the very
home of HaShem. Then again, my parents argued bitterly with The Cohanim, that
if they had not allowed all of the other Elohim such prominence in our high
places, HaShem would not have allowed Babylon to come in the first place. The Cohanim
waved them off dismissively.
In many ways, life seemed to carry on normally, until I was
18. I was running the bakery with my ima when some the shofar began blowing all
throughout the city, and men came running down the streets yelling that the Babylonians
had come, with Chaldeans, Aram, Moab, and Ammonites as well. People began
throwing closed their shops, locking their doors, and looking for the hiding
places we’d dug out in case this day ever came. I couldn’t move, I was too numb,
too frozen. I watched the chaos begin around me, while my ima and I just stood
there, covered in flour dust. Eventually, aba came into the room and found us
just standing there, and he shook us into movement. We closed everything, and
went into hiding. We stayed there for months, eating what bread we had stored,
making little cakes over dung fires from our storage reserves. We heard about
horrible things people were doing in other parts of the city just to eat something.
The Vassal King, Jehoiakim thought he would ignore the Tributes
we owed to Babylon after he initially switched allegiances from Egypt to
Babylon. Nebuchadnezzar didn’t like that much and showed up outside our walls.
It’s been almost a year now, and we have no food left. We suck on bread sacks,
hoping for a bit of the stale flour. My Parents have discussed sneaking passed
the city guards to surrender to the Babylonians, because that couldn’t be worse
then living in the city, could it? Then, we got word this evening that Jehoiakim
died mysteriously, nobody was very upset about it or asked too many questions. The
guards opened the gates and let the invaders come in, surrendering to them,
placing the body of Jehoiakim in front of the gate. What will this mean for me?
What will happen to us? Could it be worse than starving to death in my own
city, the city of HaShem, Yerushalaym? I will lay myself on HaShem’s mercy,
perhaps I can find favor in my new home, when they take me away, as long as stay
faithful to Adonai, like my friends Daniel is rumored to have done.
“And these are the words of the letter that Jeremiah the prophet sent from Jerusalem to the remainder of the exiles, and to the priests, and to the prophets, and to all the people whom Nebuchadnezzar had deported from Jerusalem to Babylon… “Thus says Yahweh of hosts, the God of Israel, to all the exiles whom I have deported from Jerusalem to Babylon, ‘Build houses and live in them, and plant gardens and eat their fruit. Take wives and father sons and daughters, and take for your sons wives, and give your daughters to men that they may bear sons and daughters, and multiply there, and you must not be few. And seek the prosperity of the city where I have deported you, and pray on behalf of it to Yahweh, for in its prosperity you will have prosperity.’ For thus says Yahweh of hosts, the God of Israel, ‘Do not let your prophets who are in your midst, and your diviners, deceive you, and you must not listen to your dreams that you are causing them to dream. For they are prophesying falsely to you in my name; I have not sent them,’ declares Yahweh. For thus says Yahweh, ‘As soon as the time has passed, seventy years for Babylon, I will attend to you, and I will fulfill my good word to you, to bring you back to this place. For I know the plans that I am planning concerning you,’ declares Yahweh, ‘plans for prosperity and not for harm, to give to you a future and a hope. Then when you call me, and you come and pray to me, then I will listen to you. When you search for me, then you will find me, if you seek me with all your heart. And I will let myself be found by you,’ declares Yahweh, ‘and I will restore your fortunes, and I will gather you from all the nations and from all the places to which I have driven you,’ declares Yahweh, ‘and I will bring you back to the place from which I deported you.’” (Jeremiah 29:1–14, LEB)
[1]
The Lexham
English Bible (LEB), Fourth Edition, Logo Bible Software, Harris, W. H.,
III, Ritzema, E., Brannan, R., Mangum, D., Dunham, J., Reimer, J. A., &
Wierenga, M. (Eds.) (Bellingham, WA: Lexham Press, 2010), Referenced during
this reflection: Daniel 1:1–2, 2 Kings 23:34–24:7, 2 Chronicles 36:4–8,
Jeremiah 22:18–19, 29:4–7, 36:23, http://www.lexhampress.com.
[DGW1]A
Hebrew name that represents "return" or "end of an
era" is "Geula" (גְּאוּלָה).
Geula (גְּאוּלָה)
·
Meaning: The name Geula
means "redemption" or "deliverance" in
Hebrew.
·
Significance: In
Jewish tradition, Geula signifies the act of being redeemed or liberated
from a state of exile or hardship. It often refers to the prophesied future
redemption of the Jewish people and the end of a difficult period, symbolizing
both a return to a promised state and the end of an era of
suffering.
·
Usage: Geula
is used as a feminine given name in Hebrew-speaking communities.
Contextual Significance
·
Biblical References:
The concept of Geula is rooted in the Hebrew Bible, where it denotes
God's saving actions on behalf of His people.
·
Cultural Meaning:
The name embodies hope, renewal, and the transition into a new and better
phase, making it synonymous with the end of an era and the beginning of
another.
Alternative Names
·
Shuv (שׁוּב): Derived
from the Hebrew root meaning "return," though it's less
commonly used as a given name.
·
Nehemiah (נְחֶמְיָה):
Meaning "God comforts," associated with the return to
Jerusalem and rebuilding after the Babylonian exile.
·
Aliyah (עֲלִיָּה): Meaning
"ascent" or "going up," commonly used to
refer to the act of immigrating to Israel, symbolizing a return to the
homeland.
Shalom: Live Long and Prosper!
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16Personalities (Myers-Briggs Type): INFJ
Wednesday, September 18, 2024
What is my mission... do I know?
Shalom: Live Long and Prosper!
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Monday, September 2, 2024
Get To Know You Bio
I am Darrell G Wolfe, Storyteller, Writer, Thinker, Armchair Theologian, Reconstructing The Way of Yeshua at www.NoHiding.Faith. I hail from North Idaho (near Coeur dAlene).
I grew up as a pastor’s kid in the Disciples of Christ (DOC), my dad was an alcoholic pastor (MDiv, DMin) turned atheist crack-addict psychologist (MFT). Meanwhile, I was having visions and spiritual experiences as a child that did not match the experiences of others in my circles. After our family left the ministry in 1996 (16-years old for me), I went through multiple expressions and traditions, and landed in the Word of Faith / Pentecostal movement for years (2003-2018).
After a mental health crises and recover in 2016-2017, then loosing my late-wife in 2018, I was spurred by questions my kids and I didn’t have the framework to answer. I finally took the journey I had been avoiding for decades and went to Bible School. I completed my BA in General Christian Studies at The Kings University (TKU) in December 2022.
Recently, after spending time soul-searching, I realized I was answering an awful lot of questions for people about the Bible. I found myself reading biblical scholarship in my free time, and missing my access to EBSCOhost, JSTOR, and other repositories of academic journal articles. I found myself hungry for more. So here I am, at Fuller Theological Seminary, getting a MATS, with very little idea as to whether this will always be a passion-project or if it will ever pivot into a paid career.
Meanwhile, my “tent making job” is a Business Intelligence Analyst (BIA) where I write SQL, Python, and work with Excel, Power BI, and Tableau for a local county agency.
I am remarried to a fellow widow, and together we have six kids ranging 12-27.
Other terms that describe me:
- AuDHD
- INFJ/INTP (INXX)
- Clifton Strengths: Intellection, Learner, Ideation, Achiever, Input
- But I’m curious to see if those changed since 2014, having experienced such a massive upheaval in my own personal growth, AuDHD demasking, etc.
- SciFi, Fantasy nerd, recently completed:
- Wheel of Time
- He Who Fights With Monsters
- Mistborn
- Current Top Favorite Bible Thinkers: Michael Heiser, Tim Mackie, NT Wright, Mark Nanos, Mark Kinzer, Thorsten Moritz
The books that made me:
Bauckham, Richard. Jesus and the God of Israel: God Crucified and Other Studies on the New Testament’s Christology of Divine Identity, n.d. https://www.amazon.com/Jesus-God-Israel-Testaments-Christology/dp/0802845592.
Cloud, Henry, and John Sims Townsend. Boundaries: When to Say Yes, How to Say No to Take Control of Your Life. Updated and Expanded [edition]. Boundaries. Grand Rapids, Michigan: Zondervan, 2017.
———. How to Have That Difficult Conversation You’ve Been Avoiding: With Your Spouse, Adult Child, Family, Boss, Coworker, Friend, Parent or Someone You’re Dating. Boundaries. Grand Rapids, Mich: Zondervan, 2006.
Du Plessis, David. The Spirit Bade Me Go: The Astounding Move of God in the Denominational Churches. Alucha, FL: Bridge-Logos Publishers, 1970.
Du Plessis, David, and Bob Slosser. A Man Called Mr. Pentecost: David Du Plessis as Told to Bob Slosser. Plainfield, N.J.: Logos International, 1977.
Fee, Gordon D., and Douglas K. Stuart. How to Read the Bible Book by Book: A Guided Tour. Grand Rapids, Mich: Zondervan, 2002.
———. How to Read the Bible for All Its Worth. 3rd ed. Grand Rapids, Mich: Zondervan, 2003.
Hamp, Bob. Think Differently Live Differently Keys to a Life of Freedom. Southlake, Texas, USA: bobhamp.com, 2016. https://tdacad.com/product/think-differently-live-differently-book/.
Heiser, Michael. Angels: What the Bible Really Says about God’s Heavenly Host, 2018. https://search.ebscohost.com/login.aspx?direct=true&scope=site&db=nlebk&db=nlabk&AN=1900613.
———. Demons: What the Bible Really Says about the Powers of Darkness. Bellingham, WA: Lexham Press, 2020.
———. The Unseen Realm: Recovering the Supernatural Worldview of the Bible. First edition. Bellingham, WA: Lexham Press, 2015.
Kinzer, Mark. “Finding Our Way Through Nicaea: The Deity of Yeshua, Bilateral Ecclesiology, and Redemptive Encounter with the Living God.” Kesher Journal 24 / SUM 210 (2010). https://www.kesherjournal.com/article/finding-our-way-through-nicaea-the-deity-of-yeshua-bilateral-ecclesiology-and-redemptive-encounter-with-the-living-god/.
Moraff, Jason. “‘Among My Own Nation’: Reading the Way, Paul, and ‘the Jews’ in Acts within Judaism.” Dissertation, Fuller Theological Seminary, School of Theology, Center for Advanced Theological Studies, 2021.
Nanos, Mark D. “Paul and Judaism, Why Not Paul’s Judaism.” Reading Paul Within Judaism : Collected Essays of Mark D. Nanos, Vol. 1. Part 1 A New Approach to the Apostle Paul as a Torah-Observant Jew. Eugene, OR: Cascade Books, 2017. https://web.p.ebscohost.com/ehost/ebookviewer/ebook/bmxlYmtfXzE2OTE4MzhfX0FO0?sid=c0e38d84-c9c6-45ca-a253-4921d0fce688@redis&vid=9&format=EK&rid=2.
Rudolph, David J., and Joel Willitts, eds. Introduction to Messianic Judaism: Its Ecclesial Context and Biblical Foundations. Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan, 2013.
Sailhamer, John. The Pentateuch as Narrative: A Biblical-Theological Commentary. Library of Biblical Interpretation. Grand Rapids, Mich: Zondervan, 1995.
Scazzero, Peter. Emotionally Healthy Spirituality: It’s Impossible to Be Spiritually Mature, While Remaining Emotionally Immature. Zondervan, 2014. https://www.amazon.com/Emotionally-Healthy-Spirituality-Impossible-Spiritually/dp/B08SHX5632/ref=sr_1_6?crid=30T0P57ZF972Q&keywords=The+Emotionally+Healthy+church&qid=1643520881&s=books&sprefix=the+emotionally+healthy+churc%2Cstripbooks%2C221&sr=1-6.
Schiffman, Lawrence H., and Chaim Potok. Reclaiming the Dead Sea Scrolls: The History of Judaism, the Background of Christianity, the Lost Library of Qumran. Anchor Yale Bible Reference Library. New Haven, Conn.: Yale Univ. Pr, 2009.
Synan, Vinson. The Holiness-Pentecostal Tradition: Charismatic Movements in the Twentieth Century. 2nd ed. Grand Rapids, MI; Cambridge, U.K.: William B. Eerdmans Publishing Company, 1971.
Tverberg, Lois, and Ann Spangler. Sitting at the Feet of Rabbi Jesus: How the Jewishness of Jesus Can Transform Your Faith. E-Edition via Logos Bible Software. Grand Rapids, Michigan: Zondervan, 2018.
Walton, John H. The Lost World of Genesis One: Ancient Cosmology and the Origins Debate. Westmont: InterVarsity Press, 2010. https://public.ebookcentral.proquest.com/choice/publicfullrecord.aspx?p=2030851.
Welton, Jonathan. Raptureless. 3rd Edition Printing. Place of publication not identified: Bookbaby, 2015. http://public.ebookcentral.proquest.com/choice/publicfullrecord.aspx?p=4188734.
Witherington, Ben. Reading and Understanding the Bible. Oxford ; New York: Oxford University Press USA, 2015.
Wright, N. T. Jesus and the Victory of God. 1st North American ed. Vol. 2 of Christian Origins and the Question of God. Minneapolis: Fortress Press, 1996. https://www.logos.com/product/37361/christian-origins-and-the-question-of-god-series.
Wright, N. T. Surprised by Hope: Rethinking Heaven, the Resurrection, and the Mission of the Church. San Francisco, CA: HarperOne an Imprint of Harper Collins Publishers, 2014.
Wright, N. T. The Day the Revolution Began: Reconsidering the Meaning of Jesus’s Crucifixion. San Francisco, CA: HarperOne an Imprint of Harper Collins Publishers, 2018.
Wright, N. T., and Michael F. Bird. The New Testament in Its World: An Introduction to the History, Literature, and Theology of the First Christians. London : Grand Rapids, MI: SPCK ; Zondervan Academic, 2019.
Yancey, Philip. Where Is God When It Hurts? Grand Rapids, Mich.: Zondervan, 1997.
David DuPlessis - “Forgiveness” June 30, 1967 Pm. Audio Recording: Posted to YouTube by Jay Hearn, 1967.
Prohibition Theology (@prohibitiontheology). TikTok Channel, n.d. https://www.tiktok.com/@prohibitiontheology.
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